Miscellaneous Poems and Unofficial Histories - Preface

Few people finish writing the preface before the main text. In my superficial impression, a preface is an annotation that sets the tone for the entire collection. So why do I write the preface first? For me, it's like a place to preserve the original intention, like a pledge that says 'I must write the story down.' Although such words will most likely be a shout with a beginning but no end, like every child's astronaut dream. But that's important too, isn't it? A hope to keep going, a motivation to set off.

I consider myself someone who is not good at writing, always entangled in the structure and expression of words (because I am indeed very lacking). Sometimes a short essay is forced to be divided into broken fragments and thus looks like poetry; sometimes sentences that pop up inexplicably are stacked together and become a short essay. On such a journey, I cannot decide where to go, yet I hope to remain as concise and elegant as possible. Often, in the end, I leave a helpless sigh in a draft that can no longer be pushed forward, left for people (including myself) who stumble in over time.

As a person, I have lived for a not-too-long, not-too-short twenty-some years, during which I have continuously encountered some impressive stories. I am not confident whether these stories are special, because I actually haven't been able to do much. Or rather, the things I wanted to do have repeatedly failed, and life just flowed over me. In any case, I must write them down, write down these extremely personal experiences and thoughts. I keep walking on the earth, and history keeps happening around us. I am very afraid that one day when I think of these things again, a cold 'How did it come to this?' or 'Actually, what happened before was just like that' will unconsciously surface in my heart.

Yes, these stories are extremely personal, diary-like, so I call them 'unofficial histories.' Everyone can be the subject of a story, and everyone must leave something behind.